The creations at John's are, of course, stunningly beautiful. No surprise, there, but wanted to see it.
Another first, sans husband.....a WalMart parking lot for the night tonight. What could be safer.
First day out after a rally always feels a bit choppy, and Lily is exhausted
, so did some laundry, checked in with my kids and drove only a couple more hours before stopping for the night. Will pull myself and things together and set out fresh in the am.
Changing my Forums name to Lily&Me, as I start this next chapter.
Chapter 1: Pray for Doug thread.
Chapter 2: A Very Different Kind of Life thread....the first 6 months
Chapter 3: A Very Different Kind of Life thread....the second 6 months.
The weekend was so enjoyable, surrounded by so many kind and caring people....that I have felt...happy
I know it's okay to feel that way....I tell myself. I feel a bit guilty, like it's disrespectiful to Doug and our life together....but think it is just me struggling between honoring and respecting him/our life together, while also taking care of myself and living/being in and acknowledging the present.
Made my reservations for Alumalina March 2015 at Wateree this morning, also for the second and third weeks of March at Edisto Beach. This will have us at Edisto for the first anniversary of his death, when I will surreptitiously feed the last tube of his Ritz crackers...which I can't bring myself to part with....to the seagulls.
The beach campground at Edisto Beach State Park was probably our favorite place in the US, so will be the perfect place to end this first year.
It feels good to feel good, and it is okay.